The breathing problem uncovered during my sleep assessment is only a piece of the puzzle. After conducting a probing interview concerning my sleep problems and habits, Dr. Clerk concluded that I also suffer from a rather respectable case of good old-fashioned chronic insomnia — the inability to fall or stay asleep — a distinction I share with 35 million others. (We're a regular bleary-eyed nation).
Anyway, the first thing to know about insomnia is that it's really just a symptom, with a myriad possible causes: physical disorders, psychological stresses, too much alcohol or caffeine, the list goes on and on.
The Cycle of Sleeplessness
Usually, several of these factors are acting in concert. In some especially contrary cases, the cause of insomnia seems to be insomnia itself. Guess what? Dr. Clerk says that's the way it works for me.
He began to suspect as much when I told him how my sleeplessness makes me feel.
"The most frustrating thing is, I can't sleep when I need to," I said. "Say I'm working overtime on a story, and the deadline's bearing down, and I need to get a good night's rest. That's exactly when I won't sleep at all. Then I'm wasted the following day and I don't get anything done, so the next night, there's more pressure and I really need to sleep, but even though I'm exhausted, I just lay there wide awake, waiting to nod off. I just don't have faith that sleep will ever come."
Dr. Clerk nodded, as if he had what he was after. "You worry that you are not able to sleep," he said, "and as a result you are not able to sleep."
I had to admit, it sounded so me.
"The harder you try to sleep, the more worried you become, and the harder it is to fall asleep," he continued. "This is psychophysiological insomnia, it means you have conditioned yourself to have difficulty falling asleep."
Wait a minute! I've taught myself how not to slumber?